Pilgrim's Progress by John Bunyan

如果告诉人家当了那么多年的基督徒，竟然没读完 John Bunyan 非常著名的 Pilgrim's Progress，实在是羞耻，羞耻 ！我为自己定下了读书的目标，除了念心理学和做功课外，我必须一个月内读完基督书本。天天接近和认识上帝，是多么重要的事，而且也是一辈子的事。心里很想做对的事，可是身体却做不到。或许我没有真正的祷告，所以很多事都做不成。实在可悲 ！

求上帝的怜悯，原谅和帮助我这个软弱的罪人。

" He shall gather the lambs with His arm, and carry them in His bosom." — Isaiah xl. 11.

WH0 is He of whom such gracious words are spoken ? Ja He is the Good Shepherd. Why doth He carry *'* the lambs in His bosom ? Because He hath a tender heart, and any weakness at once melts His heart. The sighs, the ignorance, the feebleness of the little ones of His flock draw forth His compassion. It is His office, as a faithful High Priest, to consider the weak. Besides, He purchased them with blood, they are His property : He must and will care for that which cost Him so dear. Then He is responsible for each lamb, bound by covenant engagements not to lose one. Moreover, they are all a part of His glory and reward. But how may we understand the expression, " He will carry them " ? Sometimes He carries them by not permitting them to endure much trial. Providence deals tenderly with them. Often they are "carried" by being filled with an unusual degree of love, so that they bear up and stand fast. Though their knowledge may not be deep, they have great sweetness in what they do know. Frequently He " carries" them by giving them a very simple faith, which takes the promise just as it stands, and believingly runs with every trouble straight to Jesus. The simplicity of their faith gives them an unusual degree of confidence, which carries them above the world. "He carries the lambs in His bosom." Here is boundless affection, Would He put them in His bosom if He did not love them much ? Here is tender nearness : so near are they; that they could not possibly be nearer. Here is hallowed familiarity : there are precious love-passages between Christ and His weak ones. Here is perfect safety : in His bosom who can hurt them ? They must hurt the Shepherd first. Here is perfect rest and sweetest comfort. Surely we are not sufficiently sensible of the infinite tenderness of Jesus 1

By C.H.Spurgeon

不开心。。。。母亲节

我的确还是为了昨天的事感到不开心。我只是觉得很莫名其妙，但是想想这是她的问题，一个不懂得控制自己情绪的人，从来都不是我应该尊敬的人。我只要做好自己的本份就对了。对于那些我不能控制的事，勇敢面对就是了。

今天是母亲节，想起了妈妈。有妈的孩子像个宝。  

祝天下默默付出，任劳任怨的妈妈，母亲节快乐 ！

假期

今天是卫塞节，放假一天。腰痛还没完全消失，还是隐隐作痛。我计划要做的事，都完成了。或许是药的关系，弄到我的口感觉很怪，这两天的晚饭都吃不到好味道。

今天睡午觉还是会梦见妈妈。常常在想，放工后能回家吃妈妈煮的菜，多好。外头的食物种类很多，可是却没有家的味道。

感谢上帝给了我平安的一天。

病假

每天早上，我都会定时的放狗饼和水在马路一旁，给流浪的狗狗吃和喝，这样流浪的狗狗就有了一天的温饱。

昨天早上，放狗饼时，一个不小心，扭到了腰。感觉非常的痛，可是我还是照样上班。可真没想到会那么的痛，连去个厕所都有问题。结果晚上让医生打了一支针，吃了一些药，凉也没冲，睡在床上，不能再动了。结果医生写了一天病假给我。

半夜，陆陆续续发了一些梦，大部分都不记得了。可是我还是记得梦见妈妈。早上起身，感觉还是有点痛，可是比起昨天好多了。

睡到四点下午才起床，做了一些家务，冲了个凉，感觉舒服多了。小妹常叫我别做家务了，想想我不做，还有谁能帮我做呢？

明天是假期，这次要好好的准备我八月份的考试。我希望和如果上帝允许的话，我要再退休前完成我的博士。。。然后做一些和心理学有关的研究。我也希望能帮助不幸运的小孩和妇女。

Thinking of mother

I have been thinking of mother all the times and i always dream of her. Mother was in my dream 

last night. I wanted to know so much where was mother now and how was she doing.  Mother has 

passed away more than 6 years and i still remember her every day. There was one night i dreamt of 

mother, she was living in a very beautiful house, together with father. I felt comforted, may be 

because i knew that she was doing good. I do not want to blame God, whatever things that i do not 

understand, i leave it to God. I do not want to press for an answer as our intellectual and wisdom 

are so limited and, not all things have an answer. God is just and He is good, definitely, He has 

an answer for all things.   

" Jesus saith unto him, Rise, take up thy bed, and walk." — John v. 8.

LIKE many others, the impotent man had been waiting for a wonder to be wrought, and a sign to be given. Wearily did he watch the pool, but no angel came, or came not for him ; yet, thinking it to be his only chance, he waited still, and knew not that there was One near him whose word could heal him in a moment. Many are in the same plight: they are waiting for some singular emotion, remarkable impression, or celestial vision ; they wait in vain and watch for nought. Even supposing that, in a few cases, remarkable signs are seen, yet these are rare, and no man has a right to look for them in his own case ; no man especially who feels his impotency to avail himself of the moving of the water even if it came. It is a very sad reflection that tens of' thousands. are now waiting in the use of means, and ordinances, and vows, and resolutions, and have so waited time out of mind, in vain, utterly in vain. Meanwhile these poor souls forget the present Saviour, who bids them look unto Him and be saved. He could heal them at once, but they prefer to wait for an angel and a wonder. ' To trust Him is a sure way to every blessing, and He is worthy of the most implicit confidence ; but unbelief makes them pre fer the cold porches of Bethesda to the warm bosom of His love. O that the Lord may turn His eye upon the multi tudes who' are in this case to-night ; may He forgive the slights which they put upon His divine power, and call them by that sweet constraining voice, to rise from the bed of despair, and in the energy of faith take up their bed and walk. O Lord, hear our prayer for all such at this calm hour of sunset, and ere the day breaketh may they look and live. Courteous reader, is there anything in this portion for you?

By C.H.Spurgeon 

Sinful Nature

We are sinful in nature, yes, we are, and i think this is nothing to do with cultural differences. Our 

heart is deceitful and do not like something good and holy. We hate light but love darkness, we have 

no compassion and by ourself, there is no way that we can be good. We died with our sin and there 

is no way we can come to goodness by ourself, it is simply that we are dead, a dead people can not 

wake up by him or herself.

My fren said that i had no dream of boy girl relationship already. Yes, i am, just let it be, if I am 

going to be single for the rest of my life. My focus now is very difference. I want to equip myself and 

i want to know God more. I want to be a mature and strong spiritually lady, so that i can help the

unfortunate. Let them know that God is good. 

Today is labour day and it is a holiday. Thanks God for all the good things but when i get to know 

others are still suffering at the other part of the world, yes, i feel down, i do not understand their 

suffering and i do not understand God's ways and God's plans....

" Thou art my hope in the day of evil." — Jeremiah xvii. 17.

The path of the Christian is not always bright with t'lMg sunshine ; he has his seasons of darkness and of storm. True, it is written in God's Word, " Her ways are ways of pleasantness, and all her paths are peace ; " and it is a great truth, that religion is calculated to give a man happiness below as well as bliss above ; 'but experience tells us that if the course of the just be " as the shining light, that shineth more and more unto the perfect day," yet some times that light is eclipsed. At certain periods clouds cover the believer's sun, and he walks in darkness and sees no light. There are many who have rejoiced in the presence of God for a season ; they have basked in the sunshine in the earlier stages of their Christian career ; they have walked along the " green pastures" by the side of the " still waters," but suddenly they find the glorious sky is clouded ; instead of the land of Goshen, they have to tread the sandy desert ; in the place of sweet waters, they find troubled streams, bitter to their taste, and they say, " Surely, if I were a child of God, this would not happen." Oh ! say not so, thou who art walking in darkness. The best of God's saints must drink the wormwood ; the dearest of His children must bear the cross. No Christian has enjoyed perpetual prosperity ; no believer can always keep his harp from the willows. Per haps the Lord allotted you at first a smooth and unclouded path, because you were weak and timid. He tempered the wind to the shorn lamb ; but now that you are stronger in the spiritual life, you must enter upon the riper and rougher experience of God's full-grown children. We need winds and tempests to exercise our faith, to tear off the rotten bough of self-dependence, and to root us more firmly in Christ. The day of evil reveals to us the value of our glorious hope.